well, I love Katie, un questionably, and theres nothing I would not do for her, where I can. As we approach almost two years together, Max is only now realising the Fun that she is. So last night I was trying to pin her down on some dates for our summer holiday, and for the first in a long time, we could have a nice one as well. And she simply said she could not!, made various excuses, and could possibly commit to a weekend sometime.
I was so deflated! it hit me there and then, she's simply not willing to commit; that coupled with one or two recent off days and her insistence of a change in our routines...
I suspect the prognosis is poor. Slept terribly of course, and could not think of anything to say to her! which was really strange!? but true. She said, "your upset arnt you?" actually I was initially confused, and then in a way offended. Feeling very Sad to be honest. God knows how its going to go tonight?. When I met Katie I had pretty much given up looking for my soulmate, do not really think I can face it all over again. I expect to slip into some form of depression spiral..... Always weary of Valentines day.
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