03.40 Hours

And in a way haven't I been here before. The combination of painkillers and spending the last many days on Adrenaline may have something to do with it, I imagine. Today I will meet up with Katie. A momentous occasion. Where does one begin, she surely knows how I feel about her?. The emotions, and the strengths she brings out in me. I have to try a be patient, am trying hard to understand her and give her space, and its damn difficult. Partly because you just want to grab her, 'shake' her and and make her realise that I actually , really do Care about her!. The other reason is my trying to understand her insecurities, and her past failed relationships, that's bound to be a factor; I have to be patient, try to get her to understand that the past is the past, we men are not all the same, and above anything else 'Trust' me. In one way I want to hold her tightly in my arms and reassure her,( god I so miss that) and on the other hand try to lead, have a plan, make some real decisions, show her some sort of initiative. I have never felt as I do about anybody like this in a very long time, in fact since I first got married in the early eighties. So this is that old familiar 'Love' is it?. Well the symptoms are there, can't think straight, can't relax, sleep , eat or concentrate, the only difference is this time were both Divorcees and we should not let that stop us falling in Love again.....