Carry on regardless, as I can't be much fun these days.

Spring like weather is upon us in Coventry. Unlike other parts of the country where people whom have chosen to live by the sea or large Rivers, or even live in houses built on flood plains are moaning as they wallow in pools of their own watery filth. Here in Coventry we have had a wonderful winter, very mild, only scrapped the ice off my car twice!.
                                                  The dynamics of my work place has changed, so once again I see myself moving on. This is an unwelcome change as I have worked with this team two years now. When I last saw my mother she was reasonably happy, though painfully thin, she's fighting the great fight with humor and typical Irish stoicism. This will be her last year, I know it now, and in a way I am grieving already. I don't know how I will cope with out Mum in my life anymore, she has been so significant in the creation of  what I am today.  Selfishly my mind is lost in thoughts and memories of when I lost Dad all those years back, and how that affected me. My sleep has gone to shit, and in a way I am scared, and alone now. I feel myself changing.